life is never fair is it..

dear Santa
i promise to be really good, sitting still and waiting.
please send me all my xxxxx s cascading down the chimney this december..
(and make them last.)

i'm falling in you're falling out

so nette and i bought TWO bags each for 90bucks! right?
just a lil harmless self deceit.


take me away

had always secretly harnessed longings to be packed into a bag and hide away in times of need.. just to feel safe for a while..
yea i know i'm a tad weird.

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on replay; Displaced, Azure Ray.

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yay, Meredith moved on
like, finally!

whitewashed.

finally caught up with my sleepppp
eyebags were ghastly and weighing down my sight and the world along with it
ohkay hyperbole.

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weds @ phuture..
initial boredom
to fab drinks + fab music = outofstate highness = dancing like a 'filmsy' nut.
to supreme sleepiness after all that euphoria and psychedupstate and falling all over the place (secretly~~ falling apart -smashing pumpkins HAHA)
shouldve gone to find sammiekinss/ mambo for more sanity.

butttt
THANKS NETTEY PALSXZz AND PEARLLL..
reallyreally.
HUIYI DON'T TALK TO ME (kidding. pls brush up braiding skills <3 you nonetheless)



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shoppingg w stephcheong's DA BOMB!
(: (say goodbye to gullible days)

dadeedoo+dinah : yess so jln kayu-ing or??

AND
EXCITING EIGHTEEN REE Y
im sorry about last night.. ._.
(yes i insist your fave colour is still purple)

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sch's a blurr.
f-tupstate cannot be contained anymore
i hate my grades and myself
it's just hopeless pointless meaningless empty void
but still,
hit the books, wendy.
nomoretears johnson&johnson, yz?

Her favorite flower is daffodils

(newly won over Tim Burton fan)
i loved Big Fish for its inversions

factual and imaginative (there's truth in imagination..so there!)
tickling and heartwarming (yes, teary..)
beautiful and ugly
..


all spinning an entire web of morals unfolding bit by bit
i think its worth every single one of its nominations.. and more!
(:

or maybe its just really my kind of story.

p.s Josephine (played by Jessica Lange) and Sandra (Alison Lohman) are the luckiest girls in the world..

Josephine: You never told me how your parents met.
Will Bloom: They met at Auburn.
Josephine: But what about the details? How they fell in love. The cirus, the war - you never told me any of that.
Will Bloom: That's because most of it never happened.
Josephine: But it's romantic.
Will Bloom: Mmm...
Josephine: Mmm, what?
Will Bloom: Well, I know better than to argue romance with a French woman.

Senior Ed Bloom: You are in for a surprise.
Will Bloom: Am I?
Senior Ed Bloom: Havin' a kid changes everything. There's burping, the midnight feeding, and the changing.
Will Bloom: You do any of that?
Senior Ed Bloom: No But I hear it's terrible. Then you spend years trying to corrupt and mislead this child, fill his head with nonsense, and still it turns out perfectly fine.
Will Bloom: You think I'm up for it?
Senior Ed Bloom: You learned from the best.

Will Bloom: We have to take Glenville to avoid the church traffic because the damn church people drive too slow.

Josephine: I'd like to take your picture.
Senior Ed Bloom: Oh, you don't need a picture. Just look up "handsome" in the dictionary.

Young Ed Bloom: Has it ever occurred to you that maybe you're not too big? That maybe this place is just too small?

Young Ed Bloom: There are some fish that cannot be caught. It's not that they're faster or stronger than other fish. They're just touched by something extra.

Young Ed Bloom: There's a time when a man needs to fight and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny's lost, the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue. The truth is I've always been a fool.

Young Ed Bloom: It was that night I discovered that most things you consider evil or wicked are simply lonely, and lacking in the social niceties.

Sandra Bloom: You don't even know me.
Young Ed Bloom: I have the rest of my life to find out.

Ed Bloom (Age 10): I was thinking about death and all. About seeing how you're gonna die. I mean, on one hand, if dying was all you thought about, it could kind of screw you up. But it could kind of help you, couldn't it? Because you'd know that everything else you can survive.



righto..enough quotes to flood the post. am off. hope tonight will be fun!

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the epitome of change..
never anymore.

hormones
(otherwise pronounced as her-er-mo)




rainy dayss..
try not ter get pensive with uncoorperative mood yes

visits to town, bugis, haji, plaza sing, minds cafe,
off to woodlands and secretsxzs supplies (surprise) tmrw
plusplus a hopeful squeeze of zouk/mos

Ying the company
(and shopping bags of goodiess!)

oh books, foe-of-the-mo, long-forgotten!





arent these the cutestt..
my kind of eye candy (:

thumberlina says










pretty please..

but stars are blind.

(yes i secretly think her addictive debut track is nice.)

daily activities = pretence of me ceasing to exist as an a-level student
WHAT AM I DOING!!

but distressed state aside,
omg discoveries and reuinions with pals = (:
moreee please!
impending need to fulfill insatiable desire to watch movies (p square (pretty please haha) &prada soon! click+the breakup were good..but archetypal of their genre..) and ogle at cute stuff.
and the tv is beckoning me to every 'primetime' slot possible whenever im home. (jss! :)
+i really need to check out what's that boardgaming thing all about..stop calling me swak, stephcheong!

i might as well wave goodbye (-sings steadman) to university.

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But here she is, all mine, trying her best to give me all that she can. How could I ever hurt her?
But I didnt' understand then. That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.
Y murakami
(thanks c &sam for recommendation)

yes i'm reading novels when my eyes should really be glued to statistics and economics and sexual innuendos in Chaucer.

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random.

fireworks.




rapture.






sigh. i really miss my tooth :'c
what a world of difference that lil hole makes. (and this is the cue for us to lapse into the theme of significance, physical presence vs void, tangible vs intangible ok monologue stop being lit psycho stream of consciousness writing?)


WHY? this is really random. dug it up from a long time ago. shocks, nette?


haha wting dont scream. we need to take better shots at shanghai06/07!! :D


another randomnity, missed! seeyou later dsf!

bye all
i need make myself a more productive being.


(haha dinah!)

the bold and the ugly.

(haven't done this in a long time so please pardon me, should any stray, lost birds fly this way by accident)

this is the last time.
that i will say these words
i remember the first time

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are we bein selfish by wishin things the way we want them to be such that
if everyth worked out the way we wanted
and the people we wanted to stay with us stayed,
they would be deprived of the happier larks they are right now?
to tug at someones arm (many peoples arms then) and say 'im sorry i now kno how i've screwed it up' and 'pretty please stay and remember the way things were..
should end.

i guess we could all try to find our own happiness then.
till another time -

i used to think you could be my Unsuperficial
till secrets ate it all up and all that was left was the acrid taste of what insanely feels like betrayal (bcos it shouldnt be so) compounded in marshmellows..if only you knew but does it matter if it wasnt sustainable from the very first bite

i should learn to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve,
but then i would be trying to read myself like how im trying to read all of them (/us)


nothing lasts,
stop the naivety if i could.

there's truth in imagination..

..dreamyy.

((i wish.)

curtailment like a slap across the cheek


good night, sleep light, stranger/s.

night of secret behaviour..
secretly hurt.

On Hiatus!

(moving on to new beginning of wendy wonderland :)




\ 'Sleep away the years. Sleep away the pain. Wake up tomorrow, a girl again.'

radiohead; creep

so my lids started fluttering me awake at the odd hour of 6plus a-freaking.-m. which explains my blogging at the unearthly hour of 8.58 a-freaking.-m.

this really defies my normal human proclivity
(which is to instinctively shut my eyes and if required, pretend to be asleep for the next few hours or so when im actually just lying motionless in bed with a wandering mind (appearance vs. reality) so that my dad won't disturb me to go breakfast with him (evil, i know but the awkward talk about school and things he really has no idea about is unbearable) and i can revel in some extent of self-comfort that i am no freak and can sleep for a reasonable amount of hours after watching Argentina vs. Germany like a normal person would have (this is a very long parenthesis so please just skip this pointless entry should you be one of the rare lost sheep to stumble upon my blog which i suppose only holds rare viewership..which is something i particularly like)) and i tribute this all to talk about post A's with new shopping partner yestderday. got me really hyped up, all that sandcastles built in the air..haha.
and to add stones to this weighing discovery of myself to take in, i made my own breakfast!
(though i encountered some minor setbacks along the way, such as the obstinate lettuce which refused to hold my egg whites-and-yolk bits so i had to resort to stuffing the egg bits in my mouth then hurriedly take a bite of the wholemeal bread sandwiched with some lettuce. and as a result made a mess at the sink but thank god the black granite is shiny and dark enough to offset the contrasting shades of the egg bits so i could clean it up - it's spick and span now - such that my mom would not be in the know of the depressing failure she has for a daughter. oh and i think it was a tiny fragment of eggshell i swallowed. but that's about it.)

so anyway i went to my bookshelf and found I Capture the Castle - i'm pretty sure i borrowed it from some friend of mine but it had completely slipped my mind who what when how did i borrow it so anyway charm says its remarkable and she watched the movie four times and it was so good i should catch it too despite it being screened at 2.15a-freaking.m. on hbo last week. actually this is my third attempt to read it (i was immensely bored by it the previous times) and very strangely, it seems to be performing up to expectations thus far. worthy of recommendations indeed.

anyways. had a long entire weekend of shopping and gluttony activities planned out. yesterday's find with huiyi was fabfabfab. major guilt-tripping ahead. i need to morph into major nerd as soon as the clock chimes 12a-freaking.-m. to announce the dawn of Tuesday.
ohmy i haven't blogged such a long &random entry for some time.




i do realise i contain some profound ability to shock even myself sometimes.

alright. am off to leave my poddie to charge for the day and head back to the book or watch Pride and Prejudice before heading to zhong guo town later in the day. tada.


- 'contemplation is the only luxury that costs nothing.'

p.s miss the bestfriend major :c

she said, i think i'm going Boston
i think i'll start it over.



say hello to post bt2.

dinah, belle, me and da. and da &i, while the other 2 were busy with the roses..hahaha. the last pic is our implementation of..THREE LEAF CLOVERS! ._.

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i wish people would stop telling me what i should be
i getting really confused.



and sometimes i wish you would still be here as my friend. just to be here for the whites the blacks and the in-between greys like you promised you would.





in dire need to watch mindless good chickflick (how can chickflick be good, you ask? read Twelfth Night and watch She's the Man).. yeayea i knw i wrote about high culture vs mass culture in my essay. and how the latter is debasing but .. we can all unearth this part of us.
okay whatever. rambling to myself at night.

happy birthday you June babies (ocular proof to my very flat and empty wallet)


too funny. acting strong. check out how apt the words on his shirt read. him and the girls present. you can just tell who skipped school.


angry me and scared c (resembling very much like a baby! hehe)


how much longer can a girl's arms get?!
are you tapping your feet to I'm Yours yet? qing huai kaui kuai. HAHA.


so HAPPY 18TH june babies!
(reiteration: y'all burnt holes in my wallet)

¬ to forget D. er gd luck for Chem paper that day you poor boy.


ohkay byebye
i need to go off and freak out about The BT2 & The return to school.

Three Names You Go By:
wendy. wend. dydytoe

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
china. msia. spore.

Three Things That Scare You:
myself. vehement (or even the slight bit of) arguments. poor grades.

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
wallet (with money &ezlink). v3i. poddie.

Three Things You're Wearing Now:
err nightdress. specs. ear studs?

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists at the moment:
motion city soundtrack. the lost prophets. the veronicas.

Three of Your Favorite Songs at the moment:
last train home. i could get used to this. when it all falls apart.

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than love):
security. trust. warm fuzziness.

Two Truths and a Lie:
i have 4 blue blacks and i don't know where from. my nails are the only part of me that i really like. i will tell my mom about it one day.

Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:
what appealed might not appeal anymore, what did not appeal might appeal..but err ohkay..randomly.. hair. nose. face shape.

Three of your Favourite Hobbies:
doing constructive work (satisfaction differs everyday). eating. FRIENDS.

Three Things You want really badly right now:
ACE MY A'S. HAPPINESS. December (which holds a lot of things actually..tings' return..my birthday..internship pls..a good job with satisfying pay..many mambo nights..EOY trip with friends!! (&most imptly feeling fine with my A's performance so i can enjoy myself)).

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
LA (tings!). Shanghai (shopping!). any nice beachy resorty place (so we can walk and lie around in bikinis all day and get fab tan, Dada!).

Three things you want to do before you die:
to love and be loved (friends families blahblah). travel. job fulfillments.

fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink


/ keren ann; not going anywhere

i take buses and trains in the wrong directions and wind up back to a square one
i forget my wallet and prime belongings and end up dashing to and fro
i study midway and start wondering and fretting if i should be doing something more constructive
i habitually organise stuff such as planning out my days but allow them to be disrupted should anyone need to
i cut my hair and immediately wish they'd grow and conjure images of myself in another hairstyle
i enjoy silences coupled with physical companion but i worry all the time about the ennui the other party might be faced with
i kinda get lost doing the simplest things everyday

such as the meaning of this utterly random entry



days have been fine;
meeting up with people and struggling but failing to study
lazy to recount my days..

btw happy 18th c (:
hope last night was good for you! -winks.




if we keep swimming maybe this will never die.

cross out my eyes

Zouk was funnnnn :D
though the beginning was so stoned i had half a mind to wave down a cab, hop it and snuggle under my sheets at home buttttt staying wasn't so bad!
omg hy and nette, whenever i have flashbacks of us i want to LAUGH pls
what were we doing?!?!?!
as a matter of fact i'm laughing to myself now
._.
hilarious.
anyway c, hy, nette, me and yz had dinner at this .. Chinese restaurant @ Zion Rd with yummy side dishes (forgot its name..hy pls read it out again in your Chinese accent)

Happy belated birthday NewFound HWEEEEEYI
and an early one to you GF C!


studying with Ree in her room at my little squishy seat (with her baba's picture staring at me nonetheless ._.) looking like a PRIMARY FOUR kid, THANKS, is therapeutic. albeit the tv watching, chitchatting we had moments of silence (with strangely comforting scraping sounds of my pen, according to her) dedicated to STUDY though not a lot, cos we had to leave.
so anyway SABRINA WEE doubt you'd read this BUT if you do, meet up next week ohkay! location = Ree's again cos..yes.


i see vast whiteness in the sky and slanting raindrops hitting my windows..
why is it raining AGAINN.
sorry dinah and da in advance..gonna be late
not my fault!
hahah
we're watching She's The Man YAY!
Steph and everyone else have been singing praises about it endlessly
who else to watch it with but fellow 3/4Charity Twelfth Night study counterparts?
haha. TINGS youre immensely missed.
hope you're having a blast in Shanghai - yes i know she can't blogspot there but anyhoo i thought of you (: rmb how we discussed our lit texts with such genuine interest..now i look at Othello and want to puke. grr.


rawr. not studying enough.
the palpable air of failure is getting stronger each day and yet i revel in this futility!
bad, very bad.


anyway was watching Riding In Cars With Boys (hope i got it right) yesterday
was bawling my eyes out like a retard
4 popcorns!

so amidst all the exuberance
know that everything in life is such a bloody facade.

lifehouse; all in all
i love Motion City Soundtrack!

daytime tv says:
GOODNIGHTS GF!

daytime tv says:
HAHA YES IL ZHAO GU YOUUUU

daytime tv says:
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU


:D
HAHAHAH
awww.
made me smile!

cut my fringe,
i look like a baby.
URGH.
what's new. hate fringecuts.